What is the inspiration I need?
I need to know that this season of parenthood is not finite
I need to know that its ok that I don’t feel joy in my work as a parent
I need to know that I AM a good enough parent, even if my children are nothing like other kids
I need to know that I AM a good enough parent, even if my children are mentally ill
I need to know that I can still travel back to those quiet woods, cold waters, streaming sunlight that made me feel so free and happy in my youth . . even if only in my mind . . and it WILL be enough
I need to know that there is still time to fulfill me
I need to trust that I am doing my best to balance the needs of my kids and my own needs, even if the needs of my kids seem to outweigh mine . . . sometimes they really do.
I need to trust myself without judgment. It is only in accepting the world as it is, including myself as I am, that I am free to move and change